LOVING YOU (Oneshot)

SUMMARY: Jason and Sam make love and talk about the procedure after they come home from teir dinner.

Rating: NC17

‘’I told you I was going to show you how happy I was with tonight.’’

Sam took his hand and looked at Jason, and knew he was thinking about what had happened tonight. Dinner had been great, even though she had cried though half of it because of the results of the pregnancy test. She didn’t even know why she had been so disappointed because she had known they would be negative. Jason had been sweet, her rock though it, and she knew he had been disappointed too even though he wouldn’t admit it.

And then after she had taken him to the office and Shawn had intruded on them, he had been silent. He wanted to find the Balkan and he wanted to find him now, and she could understand that. She wanted to find the Balkan too, but for the reason that Brenda would move out of the penthouse sooner. She grinned thinking about tonight, having the place all to themselves. ‘’You did.’’ She looked up again as he spoke, and she could see in his eyes he had something in mind.

‘’I’ve been thinking about tonight, you know? When you had that bag with the stuff in it, I really didn’t know what to expect, but tonight has been perfect – and I know it’s going to get even better,’’ she rambled, she was nervous. She didn’t know why, but everything about tonight had made her nervous. She could feel the butterflies in her stomach and she hoped Jason was looking forward to what would happen next just like she was.

‘’Maxie helped me, I would’ve only had some of the Hawaiian stuff,’’ he replied, and she grinned. She wouldn’t have minded, but she loved that Jason had asked Maxie for help. Maxie was a star in decorating something romantic.

‘’I would have loved everything you did. You’ve gotten so romantic.’’ He snorted and she knew he didn’t like it when she said that, but she didn’t care. He did become so romantic, he only showed it when he wanted to and tonight he had wanted to show her just how romantic he was.

‘’Come here,’’ he said softly, and he took her hand and led her to the couch. He sat down and pulled her on his lap, wrapping his arms around her and holding her close. He lifted her chin and forced her to look at him, and then he kissed her. She felt his tongue on her lower lip and she opened her mouth, giving him the access he wanted. ‘’God I missed you.’’ He whispered as he broke the kiss, and he didn’t give her a chance to reply before kissing her again. With every stroke of his tongue and every brush of his hands she felt the desire flare up even higher and she knew tonight would be perfect.

‘’Jason…’’ she whispered as he moved down to her neck and bit her, then licked the spot.
‘’Missed you too.’’ She ran her hands through his hair before stopping at his neck, and suddenly he stopped and pushed her up.

‘’Come on.’’ He took her hand and led her up the stairs to his room. He looked back and smiled at her, and she felt the butterflies begin to flare up even more, making her smile a little shaky. He lifted her in his arms and put her down on his bed, and she looked up at him as he smiled down at her. ‘’I’m going to show you how much I like you,’’ he whispered huskily, and she shivered in anticipation.

‘’I thought it was my turn tonight.’’ She moaned when he kissed her neck again and then he lifted her up a little to help her get off her shirt. He took of his own shirt after and she couldn’t help but appreciate the view of his bare chest. He’d always been strong, and she loved seeing the muscles ripple beneath his skin.

‘’Oh you’ll get your turn,’’ he said after taking off his shirt, and he lay down next to her, his hands skimming her stomach. She watched his face, and she could see something she hadn’t seen there much. Regret.

‘’Jason?’’ It was all she had to say for Jason to forget what he was doing. He looked up at her and she could see the moist in his eyes, and she knew he still blamed himself for what happened years earlier. ‘’It’s ok, you know. I’ve made my peace with it, and I never once blamed you for what happened. When are you going to stop?’’

‘’It’s just… you can’t have kids because of me, Sam.’’

‘’That’s not true. I can have kids, when I do the procedure,’’ she replied, and he smiled weakly.

‘’But you don’t want to do the procedure, so you’ll never have the chance to hold our child.’’ He broke off and kissed her again, and she was sure he wanted to stop talking about it. She hadn’t gotten him to stop blaming himself, and she knew she had to do a lot more for that to happen.

‘’I’m going to show you all the love I have in me. We’re just going to practice Sam…’’

‘’Practice makes perfect,’’ she whispered in reply, and he grinned at her again and kissed her hard, passionate. She loved it when he was like this, so different from the man he wanted everyone to believe he was. She wrapped her arms around his shoulders as he moved on top of her, and raked her fingernails over his back. He shivered in her arms and she smiled against his lips.

‘’You always do that,’’ he whispered, and she nodded. She loved the reaction he had to it. He took of her bra without lifting her up and she stretched out her arms to help him get it off, and within seconds his mouth was on her breast. She moaned as his lips and tongue worked one breast first, and then the other. Her nipples were hard as rock and she was so filled with desire it hurt.

‘’God Jason, what you can do with your mouth…’’ He chuckled a little and moved down to her stomach, pressing a trail of hot kisses on her skin. ‘’This is the best Valentine ever .’’

‘’I know right?’’ She felt his breath on her stomach and blew out her breath harshly, loving the feeling. He opened the button of her jeans and then pulled the zipper down slowly, and she lifted her hips to help him pull it down, surprised when he also pulled her panties down the same time. He sat up to loose his own clothing, and then he lay down on top of her again, both completely naked. He kissed her again, and she felt his erection press against her thigh.

‘’Jason, stop it,’’ she said suddenly, an idea forming in her head. He stopped, watching her in surprise as she pushed him off of her, then on his back. She climbed on top of him and moved down, until she was between his legs. ‘’I told you, I was going to show you how happy I was.’’

‘’God…’’ Jason moaned as she let her hair touch his erection, and then she slowly moved her head down, pressed a kiss to his stomach. ‘’Sam…’’ she smiled, sure he thought she was teasing him. She decided it was not fair to tease him like that, and pressed a kiss to the tip. His hips moved on their own accord and she held him down, one hand on his hip and another found the way around his penis, moving gently up and down as she took him in his mouth. ‘’Hmmm, Sam what you can do with your mouth…’’ he repeated her earlier words, and she could feel her own arousal rise by his. Her tongue shot out and she licked him around the tip again, and this time he stopped her by pulling her up.

‘’What’s the matter?’’ she asked, thinking she did something wrong, but when she looked at him he had his eyes closed and looked like he was in pain.

‘’God, I want to come inside you, not your mouth but…’’ he rolled them over again and kissed her, but then moved down to her neck, her breasts, stomach, and she felt his fingers move down and rub her clit. Now it was her turn to be held down as Jason did what he wanted, and she loved it. She moaned as his fingers slid inside her, and he moved further down with his mouth, stopping just above the dark triangle between her legs. ‘’You want this don’t you?’’

‘’God, yes Jason.’’ The words came out in a moan and she sighed when he finally kissed her clit. His tongue and mouth brought her to an all-time high, and before she knew it she came against his mouth. He stayed with her until the spasms stopped, and then he moved up and kissed her again. She could taste herself.

‘’I need you right now,’’ he whispered, and she looked at him and nodded. She wanted him so bad. He placed himself in front of her opening and looked at her, demanding with his gaze that she wouldn’t close her eyes, as he slid inside her in a torturing slow pace. When he was inside of her completely, he didn’t move, but stayed with her. They both savored the feeling until he pulled out and thrust in hard and deep. She moaned, he grinned when he could hear it. ‘’Yeah, that’s what I want to hear.’’

‘’Jason come on…’’ She was begging and she didn’t care, she just wanted him to start moving. He listened to her, and he started moving again, slow. She moaned, and cried out when he did something and hit her most sensitive spot. He did it again, and again, until she came again, and he moaned as he felt her spasm around him. She looked up at him and knew he wasn’t going to last long, and she wrapped her legs tightly around his waist, pulled him down to her and kissed him as she urged him to move again. He did, and he moved faster this time.

‘’Sam…’’ Jason knew he wasn’t going to last any longer when she came around him, but he wanted her to come with him. He stopped moving again to turn the tables around and she looked at him in surprise as she sat on top of him, without slipping out of her he had turned them. ‘’I want you to come with me,’’ he whispered, and she widened her eyes just a little bit as he started rubbing her clit again, trying to get her to come again.

‘’Jason…’’ She didn’t have to say more as she started moving and looked down at him, loving the way he looked when they made love. She could see every emotion on his face, and as she lifted up and down she could see he was close. So close.

‘’Come on Sam, come with me,’’ he ground out, and he watched her face as she reached the top, and he thrust up hard and fast, making them come at the same time as he had intended. She collapsed on top of him, drained after her third orgasm, and he held her tight, staying with her. He didn’t want to move, but he knew he had to sooner or later.

‘’God, Jason. That was amazing,’’ she whispered breathlessly, and he grinned.

‘’Even better than all the other times?’’ he asked, and when she nodded he laughed softly. ‘’Well, it takes two to tango. You were bold Sam, god, I loved what you did.’’

‘’You did? Well, that’s good.’’ She closed her eyes as he lifted her off of him and laid her down next to him, and then he pulled the sheets over them. ‘’Jason I’m starving.’’ He laughed loudly at that. She had just eaten a couple of hours ago, but she was starving again.

‘’Damn, what do you do with the food you eat? You just ate a couple of hours ago,’’ he chuckled lightly as she slapped him on his chest playfully.

‘’I can’t help it, you wore me down and now I’m hungry again.’’ He smiled and kissed the top of her head, and he felt her take a deep breath.

‘’What do you want? Something ordered or do you want me to make you a sandwich or something?’’ he asked her, knowing she would just go out of bed if he didn’t. She shrugged.

‘’I want something you made. But no sandwich, I want eggs, and bacon. Oh, and toast,’’ she replied, and he rolled his eyes, but tried not to laugh. He stepped out of bed and threw his shirt at her while he grabbed his sweatpants from the chair. He stepped in it and walked down the stairs without looking back, knowing Sam would follow him for sure.

Sam watched him retreat and thought about the conversation they broke off before. He was right, she hadn’t wanted to do the procedure, but it seemed like Jason did want a baby, and if she was honest with herself, she couldn’t keep denying it. She wanted Jason’s baby. So bad it hurt sometimes. She hadn’t wanted to think about it before, but she knew she had to talk to Jason about it because it meant she would have to do the procedure. She wouldn’t get pregnant without it.

She put on the shirt Jason had thrown at her and made her way downstairs, and then she walked to the kitchen when she heard him being busy in there. ‘’I’ve been thinking.’’ Jason turned around and smiled at her, and then nodded.

‘’Tell me,’’ he urged her gently, and she sat down on the kitchen counter next to the sink.

‘’You want a baby, don’t you?’’ she asked, and she didn’t have to hear the words to know what he wanted. She could see it on his face as he looked up, and she nodded. ‘’I’ve been thinking about it just now, and I’ve got to be honest with you Jason.’’

‘’What is it Sam?’’ he asked, and she could hear the worry in his voice.

‘’I want a baby too – I want your baby, Jason.’’ He looked at her and then smiled so brightly, she was blinded for a second. ‘’I can’t deny it anymore. I’ve been in denial about this for some time now and after getting back those results, I realized how disappointed I was, and I don’t know… I think it’s just overall best if I do the procedure,’’ she rambled, and he smiled again and sighed. He stood between her legs and kissed her gently, and then he stepped back and watched her for a long time.

‘’You’ve got to do what you think is best, Sam. I don’t want to be the one standing in front of everything, but I want to be beside you in everything you decide with this. I want a baby, yes, I want your baby, and if you are sure about this, I’ll be standing beside you every step of the way,’’ he told her, and she smiled at him with tears in her eyes.

‘’I want this Jason. I want to be able to hold our daughter or son, I want to see a product of our love grow up. I want this.’’ She watched his face as he listened to her, and then she sighed and wiped away her tears. ‘’I love you, Jason.’’

‘’I love you too babe, so much,’’ he whispered, and he moved to kiss her but she moved back.

‘’No, first food, then the second round.’’